Grief

I have become motherless

The nothingness of life is now far too obvious.

She was only a call away when the world was screaming at me

Now, I only have the messages she left me to keep me comfort.

I failed to join her in her last moments

And I will forever live with the guilt

She was held by two of her daughters, not me…

The two daughters who were there for her, always

Not me, this person doesn't deserve this family, that mother

I’ve been unkind, undeserving, an absolute disaster

And no matter how many apologies are given

The harm has been done
I am sorry, I am very sorry

I am undone