Reading The Best Advice We'd Give Our Younger Selves -- In 3 Words got me thinking. Lately I have been drowning in a sea of self-pity, at the age of 32 I feel like a failure and I am desperately trying to blame it on circumstances other than my inability for success. I have no professional career, more debts than savings, and absolutely no idea what I want to do, last night it hit me, I actually don't have a dream any more. What happened to me over the years that led to this point?
I know now that I spent too many years in silence, and in those years parts of me shut down. Parts were dreams flourish. Yes, I became stronger, but the impact they had on me, the impact of living with the madness in silence for so many years was so great that I am afraid there are things I can never get back. Nonetheless, there were powerful lessons I would not have learned otherwise, to be strong alone, to walk through hell in solitude demands a courage I still carry with me. For that I need to remember that it was that courage that help me break the silence, so I will for that find a new dream, somewhere, unexpectedly.
The advice I would give my younger self is to remember to break the silence, always. It is in the unspoken were demons dwell.
"Self-pity in its early stage is as snug as a feather mattress. Only when it hardens does it become uncomfortable." Maya Angelou
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